Now I know it ain't right, but I decided I hadta'Us
poets paint life, but don't get recognized till afta'
So I faked my own death just to see what would happen As I taje
shallow breaths and wait for people's reaction It was funny
at first, but I had to hold my laughter...wait Before long I was
on display at an open casket wake And I'm the main
attraction who draws a crowd. A freak show of sorts Good thing
my skin is pale enough to pass as a decomposing corpse Frozen in
my thoughts, laying stiff...playing with People's emotions
and awaiting a kiss from praying lips that I hate but miss.She
didn't show...although she sent a card with flowers How
considerate. That little bitch would make me sit in my car for
hours Heartless powers start to devour my patience...it gets me
violent I'm ready to fly shit and end everything like "I
QUIT!"Then again I sit deathly quiet...biting my tongue Just
excited that some kids...who were invited to come did I'm
the center of attention...the talk of the town It ain;t all that
profound, but on this special day of mine I'm the one the
universe revolves around It's like a birthday...kind of.I
also found that it's the worst way to find love.White doves
battle black crows in one of the back rows And everybody my ass
knows back home is sporting black clothes Looking glum as
usual...it's all too familliar I put the fun back into
funeral. My morbid humor'll kill ya' For all that
it's worth...the people who I thought were jerks Were
putting on the water works and it sorta hurts My momma stroked
my hair with so much care but hardly spoke Now my heart is
broke, and yeah...I should've let her in on the joke But
I'm honestly choked up, and I'm stuck holding back my
tears As I absorb the atmosphere, "I wanna turn back I'm
scared!"Then a hand touches my shoulder to calm my nerves And
something odd occurs because I heard my father's words So I
got disturbed...as he expressed what he's never said What
bothered me the most is that I remembered...he's dead I
manifested destiny. The best and worst of worlds has come true
As I'm buried alive, in the back of my mind echoes his
words:"I love you."